A joke according to you
Seemed to pierce through my heart
Making it bleed
It hurt my eyes

To the point it became bloodshot
Unable to bear my whimpers
Day and night
It made me lose my happiness
Forcing me to wear a disguise of stoic

Only to cease the seething emotions
Erupting under the surface
It made me feel unworthy
That I chose to be discrete
Distancing myself from connections

It made me blurt bad things to myself
Choking me with my own thoughts
Laced by my insecurities
And at the end, it was all just a joke to you